There now, that wasn’t so bad was it?

I guess you could say I’m back. I never said it was a permanent break. I think most of you know me too well to believe I could ever not post. But I did need a little time away from it. And I find the desire is coming back, so here I am.

I’m not promising to post every weekday, though. I know, I never did in the first place; I imposed that rule on myself. So now I’ve given myself permission to post when I feel like it.

I’ve decided on a few other changes, mostly to what I’ll post about. Some of you won’t be happy. Most probably won’t notice. Hopefully I will be happier, though.

And by the way, y’all have a good day now, y’hear?

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Never too old

I helped with my son’s baseball practice over the weekend. I may have learned more than he did. The coach focused almost entirely on defense and the rules, and I learned more in half an hour than I have in years. Obviously being an American does not mean you are born with a genetic understanding of baseball. It’s taken me 43 years to finally understand when you have to tag the runner and when you can simply touch the base.

And of course, as is often the case, the more I understand about something the more I appreciate the abilities of those who play the game. Circumstances can change in an instant, bringing new rules into play, and they have to not only know how that can happen, but be paying attention to know when it has. Baseball can seem like such a slow game to the viewer, and yet fortunes can change in a flash. It only looks slow. Even during–perhaps even especially during–the times when there isn’t much going on there is actually a lot going on. I’ve written about this before.

There’s certainly more thinking going on than the uneducated might suspect. And moments of courage. I got to be a base-runner during the practice as the coach ran specific scenarios over and over. I did a lot of running to third with the ball being hit right to the shortstop. I had no choice. I had to run and hope for the best. I felt reasonably safe in assuming the shortstop wouldn’t have control of the ball before I passed by him, but he could still throw to the third baseman–with me in the way, helmet-less, and much taller then either of them. I managed to not get beaned.

I have to admit I wish I could go back a few years (and then some) and play baseball on a team for a season. I think I’d be able to enjoy it now.

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Marky Mark and the GED

He makes millions of dollars from his Hollywood career, but Mark Wahlberg finally accomplished something that has eluded him his entire life: a high school diploma.

Wahlberg wrote that he decided to finish his high school years after finding a course he could take online. “For almost a year, I’ve been taking classes and studying any chance I could get — on the set, traveling for work and at home. It has been both humbling and challenging, but I’m happy to report that I am officially a high school graduate, having received my diploma this summer.”

It took him over a year, having declared his intentions during an interview with David Letterman in June 2012. He also decided to see what he could do to help others struggling to stay in or go back an finish school.

And he’s already giving back to help other teens avoid missing out on getting their sheepskins. Wahlberg explained that his Mark Wahlberg Youth Foundation has partnered with other organizations to provide resources to young people who commit to finishing high school. “Resources I wish I had access to as a teen,” he wrote.

The more I learn about Mark Wahlberg the more I like him. Maybe it’s just because he’s nearly my age. But it seems as though, regardless of where he’s been earlier in life, he’s figured out what matters most to him and approaches life and celebrity with a great deal more maturity and humility than many of his peers. I have no idea what led him to getting his diploma in the first place, but it sets a fine example that, even though he doesn’t really need it, he took the time to get it. And what’s more, he feels it’s important enough that, unlike too many celebrities, he’s willing to put up some of his own money to help others to do it. No “Do as I say, not as I do, and good luck with that” like we get far too often from Hollywood stars.

Here’s what he had to say to the Huffington Post.

Congratulations, Mr. Wahlberg

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Still working through things

It’s interesting how you never know how many people pay attention to your blog until you decide to stop for awhile. I’ve received a fair amount of feedback in the past week about what people liked about what I was doing, as well as a minute sliver about what wasn’t liked so much. And a fair number said that they’ll miss my posts.

I don’t think it was ever my intention to stop blogging altogether. My thoughts are often too big for Facebook. But I’m still deciding what focus and boundaries I’ll be adopting when I resume blogging. It’s likely I’ll have a different direction when I return, and I’m sure some of you won’t like it.

But in the mean time, I’m not able to devote much attention to my plans anyway. Things at work are getting crazy right now, and by the time I get done each day I’m mentally exhausted. Blogging is the last thing from my mind. So even if I hadn’t declared a hiatus there probably would have been one anyway.

Anyway, don’t give up. There will be more posting eventually. But not yet.

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Indefinite stop

I think I’ll be taking a break from blogging for awhile. Why?

1. I’m tired of talking about politics and society. Those who agree with me don’t need to hear more, and those who don’t aren’t going to listen anyway. I’m not sure it’s possible to change minds anymore. Dialogue is dead.

2. I’ve tried posting only happy stuff, and I just can’t keep it up. Perhaps I’m just too negative, but it’s hard to stay positive. It either comes out sounding like Pollyannastic denial or relentless crowing about how wonderful my life is.

3. My life is interesting to me, but it doesn’t change quickly enough to be interesting to anyone else. I refuse to descend into discussing my breakfast.

4. I lack the courage to write about what I really want to write about. And the world has done an excellent job of convincing me it would be met with great disdain and venom if I did.

5. If I ever do become famous there are people out there who will use every word I’ve ever written here to bring me down. Why give them ammunition?

6. My posts tend to be either short tripe or long thought-pieces. I only really have the time to do the latter, and half the time I end up not posting them because I know it’s going to offend someone.

7. “Blogger Burnout” has been codified, and is therefore cool.

I may be back. I may not. Maybe I’ll wipe the database and start over with something harmless and inane. Who knows. I might buy a pogo stick and travel the world.

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Migraines and monkeys

Obviously I missed my regularly-scheduled post today. What can I say? The day started off with a migraine and got worse from there.

My migraines aren’t all that severe, so I wasn’t too concerned. But this one turned out to be a particularly nasty one–which for most people with migraines I’ve heard from was still considered mild by their standards. Had I still been home I might have talked myself into just staying there, taking a nap, and sleeping it off. But I wasn’t. I was at work. So I slogged my way through the morning and finally felt semi-human again around noon.

But the day got worse. Someone else won the inflatable monkey.

During our team meeting today we had another round of Goals Bingo. Two of my teammates got bingo today. One of the chose the monkey. I am anguish. I am sorrow. I am lost in the gall of bitterness and despair.

But tomorrow is another day. There will be other mountains to climb, new monkeys to inflate.

Why yes, I am still hopped up on painkillers. Why do you ask?

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Fourteen and counting

One of my colleagues at work celebrated his 48th wedding anniversary last week. Compared to that the fourteen years my wife and I have been together seems rather brief. And I was rather late compared to some of my friends of similar age who are already twenty years plus into their marriages. Fourteen years represents only a third of my lifetime, while other friends have been married longer than they were single.

On the other hand, these last fourteen years have been the most exciting, most enjoyable, most important years of my life. It’s amazing what can happen when another person is willing to commit their life to being with you. Accepting responsibility for another person’s well-being is a sobering reality. Then add three more and a small menagerie and life can become pretty complicated.

Fourteen years, and I love my wife more than ever. I love her in a way that only fourteen years together can develop. Romantic love is a great starting place, but how can it compete with the deeper love that comes from shared experiences, shared struggles, shared triumphs, and shared dreams? I love my wife for who she is, for who I am because of her, and who we may yet becomes together.

My hair is much more gray than fourteen years ago. My wife is more beautiful than the day we married, and few things are as comforting as the feel of her next to me. No, we don’t always get along, but we make a good team. When we’re on our game we’re hard to beat. She’s fun and exciting, and can still surprise me. She’s my friend and partner in ways I didn’t even know a woman could be. She’s shown me other sides of life I never really appreciated before, and together we’ve explored places neither of us would have expected.

She’s stood by me even when I’ve lost faith in myself. There are times when I wonder why she’s even here next to me in the first place. I’m not an easy person to live with under the best of circumstances, and we’ve been through periods that were anything but. Amazingly, she’s still right here next to me.

All of this in just fourteen short years. If our relationship has already grown so much, developed such depth, explored so much new ground I can’t even begin to imagine what things will be like when we’ve reached 48 years.

But I wouldn’t miss it for the world.

Thank you, Kultas Vaimoni, for fourteen amazing years. I can’t wait to see what we do for an encore.

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Michael J. Totten to visit Cuba…with help

I think very highly of Michael J. Totten’s work, as I’ve mentioned before. He’s planning a project to visit North Korea, Cuba, China, Laos, and Vietnam to see what things are like in those countries. Phase One is to visit Cuba, and he’s put up a Kickstarter project to obtain funding. I passed on the opportunity to help fund his recent fictional work, but I’m seriously considering contributing to this one. His on-the-ground journalism is always interesting, always enlightening. No journalist can be completely impartial, and I don’t think he pretends to be, but his perspectives are seldom one-sided, and he regularly challenges himself to look deeper.

And I’ll admit I don’t know much about Cuba, past or present. I should know more than I do.

Consider pitching in.

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My way or my way

I recently participated in an online debate that took an interesting turn. The more I think about it, however, and the more I that same philosophy espoused and embraced at all levels of power and among all ideologies, the more concerned I have become.

The conversation centered around a particular law that is unpopular with a lot of people. One participant took the side that because he felt the law was unfair no one should be under any obligation to obey that law. While I can certainly understand the sentiment, it does nothing to encourage a solution. On the contrary, it makes a solution increasingly unlikely.

Look at it this way. You and a stranger walk into a bakery, intent on buying a cheesecake. Unfortunately, there is only one piece left. You both want it. Neither of you are willing to relinquish your claim on the cheesecake. After a moment of intense but unsuccessful debate you decide there has to be a better way. You offer to compromise with the other person. Perhaps you can split the cake and each at least get half. Surely that is better than nothing, right?

The stranger just laughs and says, “Sure, I’ll compromise. But I’m not leaving here with less than the entire cheesecake.” And to make his point he gets a very firm grip on the plate the cake comes on.

You decide to try anyway. “How about we split this down the center,” you offer.

“Okay,” replies the stranger, but he does not let go.

“Let go, please,” you say. “I want my half.”

“No,” says the stranger. “I told you, I want the entire cheesecake. The agreement we just made doesn’t achieve that.”

“But you agreed to a compromise.”

“Yes, but I will only agree to a compromise in which I get the entire cake. Anything less and I won’t let go.”

“How about if I draw the line a little farther over so you get the bigger piece?”

“Okay,” says the stranger. But he doesn’t let go.

After a few more tries of offering increasingly larger shares to the stranger he still won’t let go, though he agrees to every compromise. You quickly realize that even negotiating is pointless. He won’t budge, and your willingness to keep trying is only resulting in less and less cake for you–in fact none, since he won’t let go.

That’s the result of an “I don’t care if it’s the law, the law is bad and I won’t obey it” approach. You leave no option to the other side but to hang on to their end just as stubbornly, because giving even an inch is pointless if the other side has no intention of abiding by a compromise. Now we have a situation where no one gets even a fraction of what they want. Nothing improves. Nothing changes. One side has the law on their side, and the other just does what they want. Eventually the other side will catch on to this tactic and use it in the other direction. Soon everything is deadlocked. Nothing changes. Nothing improves.

An all-or-nothing approach to society sooner or later will destroy that society. If the law becomes meaningless and people are disinclined to obey the law then the law must either be enforced, brutally if necessary, or it needs to be tossed out. In either case society will not hold together for long. Once people feel the laws become meaningless they will withdraw. Do you think what happened in the Balkans can’t happen here? You are hopelessly naive. The most we could hope for is a semi-peaceful, voluntary redistribution of population to the emerging fracture-states that best represent their ideals. I’m afraid I can’t be that optimistic. There would be blood.

For society to function the vast majority need to be willing to uphold the laws, even if they don’t agree with all of them. The moment civic obedience becomes a la carte, society ceases to function.

In another recent debate someone suggested that not only is the Pledge of Allegience obsolete, but that we shouldn’t have to pledge our loyalty to our country. I could not get this person to see that loyalty is the price we pay for a functional society, whether we formally pledge it or not. The moment we feel that our loyalty to the larger ideal of “our country” is optional is the beginning of the decline of that country. The moment we feel our individual wants outweigh the good of the majority the seeds are sown for the fragmentation of society. If that society or country is truly repressive then it might not be a bad thing. However, dismantling one of the most free, tolerant, and fair countries in the world simply because you don’t want to be inconvenienced by a few laws you don’t like is much akin to killing the golden goose. Chances are what you end up with will be neither free, fair, or tolerant. You’ll have burned down the bakery simply because you couldn’t get key lime pie that day.

I’m doubtful the person who argued for disobeying “immoral” laws thinks he’s becoming an anarchist. I doubt he thinks ignoring the law “just this once” is going to destroy society. But he’s wrong. Maybe he only intends to ignore the one law, but his example will encourage others to ignore a myriad of laws, many of which he will have supported. No one person making a principled stand will bring down the country, but enough people following that example with their own pet issues will tear apart society piece by piece.

Again, I hope this is just me being paranoid. But history provides at least some evidence that I’m not. We would do well to think this through.

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I got nothing

I had a pretty good weekend. A company party on Saturday turned out to be more fun than expected. I was able to get the lawn mowed afterward before it got long enough to require a machete–and before rain came along and made matters worse. I had a nice date night with my wife.

Sunday I was able to summon the courage to meet a bunch of neighbors for the first time and ask them for money (for the local scout troop). And I spent the afternoon and evening reading Tyler Whitesides’ latest book, “Janitors: The Curse of the Broomstaff“, to the kids–nearly losing my voice, but we made it half-way through. We’re all enjoying it so far.

In the evening my wife and I discussed what we want to do for our upcoming anniversary. This proved harder than expected when we found several of the places we wanted to try are closed down.

And now we’re off on another full week of baseball games, cub scout meetings, young women’s group, community ed classes, and even a visit to the speedway. It’s not good when just looking at the calendar makes you tired.

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